to the woman called Mama.

This is to the woman that made me, the woman that raised me, the woman that introduced me to this crazy world. This is to the woman i respect the most, the woman that keeps me strong, the woman that will never break. This is to the woman that held me when i would shed a tear, that would give all i could ever dream of, to the woman that would go to the end of the world for me. This is to the woman that called me the funniest names, the woman that gave me the greatest memories, to the woman that made me her world and more.

And now i finally realized that that woman is Mother, my Mommy, my Mom, my Mama.

Theres things as a kid that you'll never forget, there are things you'll never remember; 

Mom's never forget; You never forget, you never have.

There is so much i haven't seen my whole life, and that was this wonderful woman that lays her head down at night, in the room right beside me. I was looking but i wasn't seeing. I wasn't seeing the way i have your curls, the way i have your eyes, the way we're so much alike. I wasn't seeing how much you give up for me, how you put up such a fight for me, how you never left my side. I wasn't seeing how blessed i was, how good i had it, how amazing you were and are to me. It's sad that its took me 15 years to see that. 

..Yeah, i saw it, i told you i loved you and that you were the best mommy, and i meant it every time. But I've never really meant it like i do now. 

I'm 15 now, and I'm growing up, and it's so easy to see the you in me. I'm thinking like you, and talking like you, and shining like you. Remember how everyone told you I would shine one day? You put that light in me, and you made that light shine. 

You know how you used to tell me that I grow up too fast, and i never believed it one time; well I'm getting older now, and i know what you meant. When we're little we want freedom and want to be old and make our own decisions, but when you finally get there its not as great as you picture it; more stress, more choices, more responsibility. There is nothing i wouldn't give to be a little kid again, and boy i wouldn't even complain one bit about being little. You gave me the world, and i didn't want it, i just wanted to be older and now that I'm here, i want it back. Im a Sophomore in high school, Mom can you believe it? i grew like a weed didn't i? That's what you used to always tell me. 

remember how you put up the fight of your life for me, and when i was finally here it was like nothing else mattered?

remember how you held my hand with the pinky on the back of my wrist?

remember how i always picked flowers for you?

remember how i started pre-school and screamed and cried for my mama, and you left in some kind of, what i used to think, terrible place and how it killed you?

remember how that first day of kindergarden i couldn't wait to get out of the car, and you cried on the way to work?

remember how i sang at the PTA productions and you always came and saw me?

remember how you helped me make the coolest pumpkin that won 1st place?

remember how i graduated from 5th grade and i thought i was the top dog?

remember how i was scared to death of the thought of middle school?

remember my rebel attitude stage, and how you loved me anyway?

remember my 8th grade graduation, when i cried cause i was finally going to  high school?

remember how happy i was to be a freshman

remember how that boy broke my heart and you listened to my sobs and were there for me?

remember how the other day in the car when i talked to you about how when your little you want to be old, but when you get here you want it back? i cried but i didn't let you see.

Do you remember?

Remember how you made these past 15 years the best years they could ever be?

Mama, I may grow of out my shoes, my bed, my clothes, and even my pj's, but there is one thing i'll never grow out of..

 ..that is my love for my Mama.

I love how you sang to me, how you told me jokes, how you tickled me, how you let me play outside, how you jumped on the trampoline with me, how you brought barney to my party, and so much more. 

You know i love you so im going to thank you;

Thank you for being so patient with me. Thank you for youre great since of humor, and thank you for ALL the times you made me laugh. Thank you for the wisdom you showed me. Thank you for being understanding, and encouraging me to do my best and be my best. Thank you for being not only my mom, but my bestfriend. Thank you for every single thing you have done for me, i cannot thank you enough for all the things you do in my life. Thank you SO much for making me the girl i am today, and for making me so much like you. <3

I love you so much, and you are the best mama i could ask for. 

God has truly blessed me with the absolute best mama.

-Love, T.J. boofiea.