Daddy's Day.

Alan Terry Joyce, daddy, father, padre, daddy-o, a t cool j, dad;
i want to start off by saying Happy Fathers Day to the best daddy in the world! i hope you enjoy it.
there are so many things i want to say but i don't know how.
1) you re a great dad! that's simple. you have a hard job to hold up. you provide for our family very well, and i cant be more thank full for that.
2) you stuck around. being a dad can be and is scary. most dads don't make it this far, i am so glad you did. i cant imagine my life i with out you.
3) you raised me right. you have made me the kind, courteous person i am today. you have taught me to love God, the outdoors and family. you've been a role model, showing me respect, love and compassion. you've raised me to be a down-home country girl, and i love that more than anything.
As i am growing up and realizing what is important and what isn't i see the "you" in me. we are so much alike, i mean for heavens sake look at our freaky Joyce feet, and our initials. (: we aren't as close as some father daughter relationships, but i pray that someday we will be.
Daddy, i will always be your little girl, no matter how old i look. i am still that little rowdy girl inside. (: Yes, i get a little bit of an attitude sometimes, and i snap at you and mom but i want you to know i don't mean it. i am a hormonal teenage girl, sorry.
we're both growing up, and learning, hang in there. i am about to graduate in 2 years. can you believe it daddy? Ive waited for this time my whole life. aren't you proud? but don't you worry, no matter how far away college is i will never forget where i came from. i promise i will be back, to this sleepy ole town, the town that made me.
you inspire me in so many ways, and you hold our family together; i love that. things are always changing: clothes, phones, technology, but one thing that will never change is how much i love my daddy.
there is no way humanly possible to thank you enough for anything and everything you've done and do for me.
I Love You So So SO much, dad. words cant come close to explaining.
Love, Your little girl. <3

One last breath.

as humans we tend to live life like we have many years ahead of us, when truly, we arent promised anything.

..one of my friends was in a bad car accident,

Daniel Hoover pulled out of Wal-Mart in Elkin, and was t-boned on his side of the car.

this opened my eyes so much,

things happen, that you would never expect in a million years,

do you think he thought as he pulled out, a car could hit me, i could have an accident, i could die..

what if you just took your last breath, what if you had an accident, what if your mom or dad just took their last breath, what if you never got to tell your bestfriend goodbye before she died.

we dont realize how unforgiving this life is.

tend to fill ourselves up with useless materialistic things that we think make us happy.

we have this comfort that this world will treat us right, but in all seriousness, its out to get us.

cheating us, scamming us, decieving us, filling our heads with false information.

you never know when your time will come, and you need to be ready.

be strong the Lord, and know you will spend forever with him. 

make a relation ship so beautiful, and to trusting, that no one or nothing can come between..

..cause you never know when you might take your last breath.

O Lord, You are my God; I will exalt You, I will praise Your name, for You have done wonderful things, even purposes planned of old in faithfulness and truth.

Isaiah 25: 1

to the woman called Mama.

This is to the woman that made me, the woman that raised me, the woman that introduced me to this crazy world. This is to the woman i respect the most, the woman that keeps me strong, the woman that will never break. This is to the woman that held me when i would shed a tear, that would give all i could ever dream of, to the woman that would go to the end of the world for me. This is to the woman that called me the funniest names, the woman that gave me the greatest memories, to the woman that made me her world and more.

And now i finally realized that that woman is Mother, my Mommy, my Mom, my Mama.

Theres things as a kid that you'll never forget, there are things you'll never remember; 

Mom's never forget; You never forget, you never have.

There is so much i haven't seen my whole life, and that was this wonderful woman that lays her head down at night, in the room right beside me. I was looking but i wasn't seeing. I wasn't seeing the way i have your curls, the way i have your eyes, the way we're so much alike. I wasn't seeing how much you give up for me, how you put up such a fight for me, how you never left my side. I wasn't seeing how blessed i was, how good i had it, how amazing you were and are to me. It's sad that its took me 15 years to see that. 

..Yeah, i saw it, i told you i loved you and that you were the best mommy, and i meant it every time. But I've never really meant it like i do now. 

I'm 15 now, and I'm growing up, and it's so easy to see the you in me. I'm thinking like you, and talking like you, and shining like you. Remember how everyone told you I would shine one day? You put that light in me, and you made that light shine. 

You know how you used to tell me that I grow up too fast, and i never believed it one time; well I'm getting older now, and i know what you meant. When we're little we want freedom and want to be old and make our own decisions, but when you finally get there its not as great as you picture it; more stress, more choices, more responsibility. There is nothing i wouldn't give to be a little kid again, and boy i wouldn't even complain one bit about being little. You gave me the world, and i didn't want it, i just wanted to be older and now that I'm here, i want it back. Im a Sophomore in high school, Mom can you believe it? i grew like a weed didn't i? That's what you used to always tell me. 

remember how you put up the fight of your life for me, and when i was finally here it was like nothing else mattered?

remember how you held my hand with the pinky on the back of my wrist?

remember how i always picked flowers for you?

remember how i started pre-school and screamed and cried for my mama, and you left in some kind of, what i used to think, terrible place and how it killed you?

remember how that first day of kindergarden i couldn't wait to get out of the car, and you cried on the way to work?

remember how i sang at the PTA productions and you always came and saw me?

remember how you helped me make the coolest pumpkin that won 1st place?

remember how i graduated from 5th grade and i thought i was the top dog?

remember how i was scared to death of the thought of middle school?

remember my rebel attitude stage, and how you loved me anyway?

remember my 8th grade graduation, when i cried cause i was finally going to  high school?

remember how happy i was to be a freshman

remember how that boy broke my heart and you listened to my sobs and were there for me?

remember how the other day in the car when i talked to you about how when your little you want to be old, but when you get here you want it back? i cried but i didn't let you see.

Do you remember?

Remember how you made these past 15 years the best years they could ever be?

Mama, I may grow of out my shoes, my bed, my clothes, and even my pj's, but there is one thing i'll never grow out of..

 ..that is my love for my Mama.

I love how you sang to me, how you told me jokes, how you tickled me, how you let me play outside, how you jumped on the trampoline with me, how you brought barney to my party, and so much more. 

You know i love you so im going to thank you;

Thank you for being so patient with me. Thank you for youre great since of humor, and thank you for ALL the times you made me laugh. Thank you for the wisdom you showed me. Thank you for being understanding, and encouraging me to do my best and be my best. Thank you for being not only my mom, but my bestfriend. Thank you for every single thing you have done for me, i cannot thank you enough for all the things you do in my life. Thank you SO much for making me the girl i am today, and for making me so much like you. <3

I love you so much, and you are the best mama i could ask for. 

God has truly blessed me with the absolute best mama.

-Love, T.J. boofiea. 

Three things,

There are three things in life that bug me the most:

-liars

-hypocrites

-selfish people.

Nothing gets me going quite like those three things do.

like it is honestly, terrible.

i hate it, i hate it, i hate it.

and it just so happens that this very month of march has swarmed me with these three things.

March is the worst month 

I am dearly sorry if your birthday is in march,

I know God has a plan for me, and i know He knows what he is doing,

It all is just not making sense now..

i hate it.

"i will trust and not be afraid"

Do you know how it feels when you heart tells you one thing and your mind tells you another?

its a constant tug between the two aspects. 

its like an uphill battle, you keep trying to fight, but when you fall down you roll down the hill, even farther than you were  before.

when you get hit, you get hit hard.

and its that kind of thing that tear people apart, and tear people down.

all the threads that i thought would hold me together are slowly unraveling.

there is one difference between me and many others with the same problem.

I turn to God.

and thats the one thing that keeps me together;

that is the one thread that hasn't unraveled;

the one thread that hasn't broken.

Through it all, one person has been on my side.

God.

He works wonders, and makes miracles happen;

and his mercy is so amazing, 

He doesnt discriminate between color, race, popularity, money, nothing.

He loves us all, e v e r y single one of us, unconditionally.

and He has never once failed to be here for e v e r y one of us.

Here lately i feel like i can never do anything right, like i keep fighting for what i want or need and it just completely backfires on me.

i feel like i put so much into things and the crumble right in front of my face; 

every time..

and im getting worn down from it, im starting to loose interest in everything i do. Im waiting and putting myself behind everyone, im just waiting around for some miracle to happen; 

im tired of trying

im tired of loosing everything

im tired of getting built up to just be broke down

im tired of wasting my time

im tired of waiting..

and i feel like i cant do it anymore 

and everything that once mattered so much to me just seems useless.

through it all, i have God and need to see that.

"Surely God is my salvation; i will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation."

Isaiah 12:2-3

Goodnight, Godbless.<3

Gods beautiful world.

i spend all day adoring the thing the dear Lord blessed us with,

..our world, our outdoors, nature..

everything is so beautiful, and we take it for granted, all of us.

These are all my photos, btw. 

i ventured outside along with my camera, and took a walk, i swear i walked for hours and just admired everything that the good Lord blessed us.

i never knew how beautiful and amazing the world was,

i did when i was little, of course. 

i would sit and observe everything, and ask, 

"why daddy?" "how does it do that?" "thats so cool"

and as i grew up, my love for everything grew smaller and smaller, i got sucked into this little thing called life. 

the phones, the internet, the money, the popularity, the friends, the parties, the cars, the houses, the perfect lifestyle; and faster than you know it, the little country grown girl was gone into oblivion.

The girl that appreciated anything and everything was gone, she was lost in the world made of bigger and better things.

when i was little i spent countless hours outside, in the woods, at the river, in the creek, in the garden, running thru the fields, playing in mud holes, making awesome club houses, discovering the world.

oh how i yearned to explore every inch of it; and i WAS determined to do it.

id come inside with cuts on my legs, from the briars and trees that scratched me, yet i didnt care; every one of them had a story behind it. just like battle scars, and i had them and i loved talking about them.
my cousins and i would go into the woods just as the sun came up, and would play in them until the sun went down. 
it was a different world for us, and we loved it.
we pretended we were indians, or we were animals, and we loved it.
we loved the outdoors and we spent every waking hour outside, until it was time for bed.
when hunting season our parents would tell us not to play in the woods, 
"what?! no playing in the woods?! are you crazy?!" we would yell.
and we did it anyways. yeahh.. we got yelled at, but we didnt care.
i could go on for days and tell you stories that happened.
that same girl that im talking about, is starting to realize how great our world is.
and i found that girl in me today.


on my journey, i just started walking, i walked our fourwheeler trails, to my old club houses, to fields i played in, to creeks i got muddy in, to places i once made memories; 
and i just reminisced; i cried, i laughed, and just let myself take it all in.
i dont ever want to forget those days, everrrrr.
then i walked places ive never walked before, and i just let God guide me.
and i made the connection that, that walk was just like life.
sometimes theres two paths, and you dont know which one to take, and it might take you where you dont want to go; and you experience things, and learn to love them. 


The people in Japan lost their beautiful earth, and all of a sudden when they opened their eyes it was all gone, in a mess.
think about the tribes in africa, if they step out of their territory, they get shot,
or people in the middle east, that show their face anywhere and get murdered. 
some people do not have the pleasure to step out their door and smell the fresh air, or see a vast of greenery.
they smell smoke, dead bodies, industry, car exhaust, the smell of destruction.
and its sad.


God granted us with the beauty of our earth, and were slowly tearing it apart.
I am so thankful that God has blessed me with the eyes to notice the little things, and the heart to love them.


Im a country girl, wanting that country heart back.


Thank you Lord so much for everything you bless us with,
Thank you for this glorious place you allow us to live one,
Thank you for allowing me to see things this way,
Thank you Lord for all you do. 
<3


Goodnight, & GodBless. <3

simplicity.

I have discovered that simplicity is one thing that i adore.
Simple people, simple clothes, simple life, simple simple simple.
yes, interesting is nice, but i like simple. 
you dont have to wow me.
gosh this is so hard to put into words.
perfectly simple. (:

there is one person in my life that i cherish, his name is red.
he is perfectly simple, and i love everything about that.
i don't have to be all dressed up around him, i don't have to play it cool around him, i don't have to pretend, i can be simply myself and he loves it, just the way i am. i am starting to realize that that is how i want to be, simply simple. I love being around red, i would spend every hour of the day with him if i could, cause everything is so simple and genuine and i just am in love with it. there is nothing that i love in this world more than a good talk and just bonding with someone, just letting everything go and letting all my emotions escape. I just want to get stuck in that moment forever where everything is simple.
here lately i've been thinking about time, and how you're only in one moment for that one moment and its gone, you cant go back and relive it or bring it back, its gone forever. you're only this old once, and you're closer to death every second,
it really blows my mind,  


im tired, im going to bed before i think myself to death. 


GODbless.<3

all i simply want.

This is all i seem to be thinking about lately; 

i just want something real.

and as im something i mean love, or companionship.

i just want something meaningful, and something so divine;

but i cant seem to find it, 

is it really that much to ask?

is it too much to ask to actually commit to someone, to treat them with resepct, to cherish them, and to love them?

i wouldn't think so..

I see couples all the dang time, hugging and loving on each other, and it just makes me sick but deep inside i envy them. Especially the ones that have been together for a long time, they have it so good, and i want that.

Well i know one thing, God loves me and he has a plan and thats all i can fathom.

<3

Day 10;

post a picture of someone you love.

My Dog, Diesel, My Baby.

I know hes not much of a someone, but to me he is.(:

He is the best dog i could ask for, i never thought id get so attached, but i have. 

ever since he was a tiny little puppy ive babied him,

He was a chub-wub, with the cutest personality. 

listen to this, everyday when i come in from school he is waiting in the same spot down my drive way for me, and i always roll my window down and yell his name, and that tail just goes a wagging,

every night i go put him in his pin, pet him, kiss his nose tell him how much i love him and to sleep good and hear lately to stay warm. 

we got him a soccer ball, boy does he love it;

these past warm days i go outside and play soccer with him, hes a cheater tho,

ahaha, (: 

hes the best, point blank. <3

"love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil bit rejoices with the truth. it always protects always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. 

Love never fails..."

Corinthians 13:4-8

<3

day nine.

Post a picture that has a meaning but only to you.

Domestic abuse is a rising problem not only in america but all over the world.

and this is just one case.

http://www.irishgoddess1337.com/DV.html

there are millions and millions of women that are abused every day.

not only physically but sexually and mentally.

it cuts and it cuts deep, it leaves a scar, forever reminding the victim. it doesnt go away, ever.

not only does it affect the victim, but it affects the children

and the worst part is, no one ever finds out..

the person is too scared to tell; or too ashamed.

then then beater, gets away with it over and over.

now Thats the sad thing about todays society, were to afraid.

something needs to be done.

 yeah its deep.

i got the best news today, <3

mmm, Fairytale.

i did nothing today, absolutely nothing. 

the only time i got out of bed was to eat, and to go get the mail.

But yeah, maybe ill think of something by tonight.

GodBless. <3

i stepped up.

Okay so one of my friends and former BESTFRIEND has been having major issues with her family and her friends.
We used to be so close and everything was okay, well we dont go to school together, and making new friends was a big challenge for her..
just recently she has been going through some deep stuff, and she has been nothing but depressed; shes been crying every morning, and all day. It absolutly kills me to see such a beautiful girl be so down.
i was reading her tumblr posts and they were saying some very very very crazy stuff. to start off with her tumblr name was, "icutttheselovelywrists" which doesnt sound to good within itself. all of her posts talked about how she hated herself, how she hated her life, how she hated everything about her and that she just wasnt worth living. well one post caught my eye; she had wrote letters to all her family members saying how terrible she was and she just needed to kill herself, cause she wasnt worth living and no one loved her. This girl used to be SO outgoing and happy and loving, she loved her life and everything about it; and now it was like this? i had to do somthing. 
ya see im the type of person to just stay out of it. I wasnt really sure if she was still a christian, but i was my place to step in.
i sent her this message.

so i read your tumblr stuff. it really upset me and has me a little worried.

____ , you are such a lovely girl, and you have a meaning for life.

i dont know if your a christian, but its my place to tell you this.

God loves you, God made you and by golly he made a masterpeice.

you are so genuine. You are soooo loved, he loves you so much, you are his pride and joy, and he wants you to realize that.

see i was once in your situation, i didnt care, and i wanted to die.

but i turned to God and he has turned my life around and has gave me everything i could ask for. i didnt believe in miracles, but hell did i need one, and all i had to do was talk to god, beg him for forgivness.God does great things, and he can do great things in your life.

____ you mean so much to me, soo much. i love you , God loves you, youre family loves you, your friends love you. you are truely blessed. God tests us he brings people in and out of our lives just to see how we do, he works in mysterious ways, he deprives us to show us there is a light in the dark to show us there is a up when youre down and he truely loves us all. ALL of us.

Yes weve mad mistakes but he loves us just as much as he did before, and he will love us unconditionally forever. He loves you so much, and he is proud to say he created you, i mean who wouldnt, youre amazing in and out, through and through. Youre Gods creation.

Just hear me out this one time ____, just this one.

Talk to god, ask him for forgiveness and tell him you need him and you love him and thank him for everything, and he will give you an everlasting life you your grandpa, and all your family. a life without suffering or pain, a life of harmony and love. Your so precious to him, and he gave his son for you.

there are such things as miracles, and you can be one of those.

please just hear me out ____; you probably think im some Godly freak, but im telling you, liveing a life walking with God is so amazing; cause you know deep in your heart he loves you. Jesus longs to comfort you and will do anything for you.

"The lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my god is my rock in whom i take refuge. he is my shield and the horn of my salvation my stronghold, i call to the lord who is worth of praise and i am saved from my enemies." Psalm 18:2-3.

I love you ____, more than anything, i am here for you always.

but i really want you to think hard about this.

♥

she replied saying how much she wanted to thank me and that it really opened her eyes.

i was reading her tumblr today, and she talked to her counselor, and her friends, and her mom, and shes getting a therapist. This girl NEVER talked to her mom, our counselor, and to see that really made me smile. She posted and said thanks to ____ ____ and ____; no my name wasnt on there, but im fine with that. She used to cuss every other word, but in the new post i saw no cuss words. 

this was the thing that got me most;

Guess what her tumblr name is.

Newflesh.

Miracles can happen; and with God they are possible.

Just thought id share. 

Godbless,

all three.

Post a picture of someone who means alot to you.

These two girls, 

Madison Blake Johnson, and Haley Elizabeth Joyce.

ask me anything about them and i COULD tell you.

no doubt,

these were the three girls that were inseparable. 

the girls that everytime they were together they begged their mamas if they could stay longer or spend the night.

they spent every waking moment together, 

they made every memory together,

they shared every laugh together,

the created a everlasting bestfriendship that will never be broken.

a bond that will forever be established.

a friendship so tight and so close that nothing could break us.

a totally different world that no one could enter but us.

we were those girls.

we are those girls.

we will forever be those girls.

when you heard ones name you knew all three.

once you knew about one, you knew about all three.

when you talked about one, you talked about all three.

when you spent time with one you spent time with one, you spent time with all three.

when you loved one, you loved all three.

We were and are the three friends that every girl wishes they had. 

and we are dang proud of it.

how would it make you feel to say, "hey, we've all been bestfriends since we were all born."

for me thats a decade.

a decade, that is one powerful word.

think about this. 

how many people can say, 

"ive been friends with these 2 girls for a decade."

mean not skipping any years or anything.

not many.

God knows what he's doing, he took the two best girls and put them in my life.

He knew that we'd keep that friendship, and we'd cherish it, and we would thank him everyday for it.. ..he knew.

these girls have filled up my heart with the most valuable thing you could ask for; love, companionship, and friendship.

they mean nothing less that everything to me, no matter what happens.

they are f o r e v e r my soul sisters. from the day they were born till the end of time and throughout eternity they will be my b e s t f r i e n d s. 

Nothing, no one, not a single soul or object will ever replace them. 

they are everything i could ask for and more; 

and i will love them unconditionally for the rest of my life.

 A friend loves at all times, and is born, as is a brother, for adversity. 

Proverbs 17: 17

Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.

I love you girls. <3