long time no blog.

Day six;

do you miss anyone?

uhm yes.

theres a few actually.

-my grandpa,

-red,

-mac,

-and madeline.

These people meant and do mean so very much to me; every single on of them.

My grandpa, my light in the dark, my idol, my long lost friend;

he was nothing but the greatest grandpa in the world.. and its its physically impossible to describe how much he meant to me, means to me, and how much i miss him.

ive blogged previously about him, but i will say over and over how much i love him, and how much i cant wait to see him one day. <3 

the thought of him brings tears to my eyes.

Red, My Bestfriend, My brother, The reason i get up in the morning;

wow, so much has happened, and it all happened so fast.

the day after my birthday, oct 14th, we got in a huge fight and didn't talk till about 2 weeks ago; and the past to weeks have been the best two weeks of this year. (: i'm starting to remember why i loved this guy so much.

he means absolutely everything to me, and i wouldn't trade him, or our memories for anything in the world. He knows everything about me, and we caught up on the past 3 months in 2 weeks. things are so back to normal its unbelievable, i thank God every night for allowing me to humble ourselves and letting us get past everything. its like nothing every happened, and that showed me how great God is, and that miracles can truly happen. Nothing explains how much i missed him, and how much i am so happy were friends again; and no one can even fathom how it warms my heart to be back to the way things were. <3 Red never fails to make me feel any less than perfect, he is simply the best thing i could ask for, and i mean that. <3

Iloveyou, red. (:

Mac, My Lover, My girl, My reason to keep my head up.

This girl has been here for me since the 4th grade. She has never let me down once. Never has she ever not been there for me. She brightens up my day with just a crack of her beautiful smile. (:

We are starting to connect like we used to, and i have missed her so much. 

<3

Madeline, My mud buddy, My friend since birth, The apple of my eye. 

Oh wow, we have done so much together, we've been thru everything, we toughed out the rough situations. as she is starting to grow up were beginning to split. we used to spend EVERY weekend together, and everyday in the summer together; now rarely get to see her, once every month at most. i miss the crap out of her, and i want it to be the way it used to be, but i know thats a lot to ask.

i miss; our crazy talks, our adventures, our river explorations, our tree house building, our fourwheeling, our endless hours of just laughing, our makeovers, our everything.

i want it all back.. 

thats my goal for February.. to see Madeline and have a down right blast with her. (:

well i havent blogged in a while so ill explain why.

i went to states for swimming, just as an alternate; in other words i got a free ride to raleigh, free a night in a hotel, 5 free meals, and a blast due to the others success. 

gotta love it.

i had a blast, i loved every second of my states experience. 

i had the time of my life with: Austin, Courtney, Miyu, Krista, Mikayla, Ashley, Chelsea, Marc, Jacob, and Brian. we stayed up till three doing everything we could, ahhhh. so amazing. (:

 well, imma go to bed. 

Goodnight; GodBless. <3